Could begin again

I tried to reach you but was blocked 
I tried to meet you but your door was locked 
I called you anonymous just to hear your voice 
I switched 10 numbers to b blocked I had no choice 
I just wish to talk to you once coz I need my answers 
Why did you kept lying keeping open the chances 
You said you never needed me 
Us being together was a liability
It was you who thought so when I was hiding reality 
But you forgot those desperate times 
When you accepted to.be my incomplete rhyme 
When you let me hold your hand and stare in your eyes 
You loved it when I trusted you more ,overlooking truths n lies 
When in the rain on my knees I asked will you be with me forever 
And you wanted to walk through till end by my side 
I never felt and I would never come to know
Those things you said or did meant nothing but a staged show 
I seek my answers I want back my wasted past 
I wish I could begin everything again from.the.start ...