Its been a long long time

Its been a long long time
Since you have been online
Longer it has been since you showed up
Not hearing from you has made my life rough
There aint no texts from you yet
... Have been staring and staring at the phone
But still the wait continues nothing shown
How much i miss you is unknown
I care for you more than anything i assure
whole heartedly from a mad poet always yours

Beyond the end of time

If this world is gonna end someday
 Nothing tomorrow is gonna stay
 If it really meant the world stop turning
 If the time ever stopped churning
 Can I ask you out on that unfateful day
 Can I ask you a little more to stay
 Coz there would be a hope at the end
 There would be another day that God would lend
 And if so be it true so be it another sunrise
 I just want to begin again
 my life a new start looking into your eyes
 And then it would become needless to say
 That I will be there for you till the end
 Because at the end where we together spend
 And I was there and still I am
 My love beyond the clutches of time :)

Things if only could be changed

Somewhere down below
Today I feel low
I ask myself why
I wish to get high
Will that solve the problem
No it aint the goal
Will it lessen the purpose
No it aint for sure
I hear around blabbering
Noisy crowds gathering
The sound of soul is unheard
Everything seems so absurd
And if get a chance to do
I wanna do the things that I wish I knew

Nostalgic mood and absurd thoughts

Rage rage is all I am feeling now
HAve to break out of this nostalgia
Have to leave all the pain somehow
Is it more to ask for a friend
Why does every journey have to end
If you ask me anytime I want to
Go Back in time and live again
I think I dont want the choice
I never want to get born again
Because my life is full of memories
Memories and people whom i love
Stacked in the timeline down and above
Why do everything has to be left behind
Why do every period come to an end
Why does life move straight n never bend
We say we got more to do and have little time
But left at the end alas with the do's and a whine...

Have I done Enough

Amidst the lonely streets
I walk alone thinking
If I did enough
Enough to make you feel
Have I done enough
Enough to make you forget
All the memories of past
That you think and regret

But my lady whats my fault
If you take me like other guys
Have I done enough
Enough to build on truth
Not on any silly lies
Yes I agree I do sometimes
Do things unintended
But trust if it was my bad
I would never have defended

Now still the question remains
Have I done enough
Enough to get your attention
Enough to get your love
Have i done enough
To make you feel free
To make you always smile
And have I done enough
Enough to make you forget
Made sweet moments to remember
Souvenirs you will never regret

Into the mirror

Standing in front of my image
I look into it eye to eye
There is one simple question
That keeps coming in my mind
Will you ever be the same
In the name of God say
Are you a man at heart
Or corrupted is your chosen way

Ask yourself are you still a human
If you waste and your waste is the thing
the less fortunate is craving and crawling
Ask yourself if your heart still feels
If unnoticed is left a child collecting peels
If ignore be the choice to injustice chosen
Its in front of your eyes but you stand frozen

And still I look into the mirror and ask
If I do enough to ever be the same
Have I done enough to resist the change
Or have I sold my soul to success in exchange..

At the end of a day

the moments are here somewhere
scattered and lost in sands of time
like a boat without oars sailing
Set out to complete an incomplete rhyme

lots of luck and little bit of brain
the ways of world will drive you insane
lots of efforts and so less gain
cant get born without any pain

but the light of hope is in this heart
someday will overcome my fate
u have a soul you have a conscience
u have the will power par any science

with this thought putting an end to a tiresome day
start tomorrow a fresh beginning with another story to say..

Emotions on being high

Hey guys this piece of work has some special significance .. I wrote this when I got high for the first time.. Enjoy..  :P

 

                                                                                                                
I dont know why I love you so much
From the bottom of my heart I say
I dont know how I would live without you
I wish someday you be mine everyday I pray
In my heart there is a light glowing
It directs to a path doesnt know where its showing
But there is always an image in my eye
I cant express my feelings I am shy
But I dont know when will come that fateful day
When I will have the guts to say
I love you so much much can it be possible
Liking you more than me for anyone else impossible
I can write a song I know it wont last long
But loving you without expecting I dont feel wrong
I love you so much but why cant you see
I will keep you happy forever forever existence need to be
I loved you more than I cared to own my soul
But you dont answer to me you played foul....

Wish you ever be the same

I wish you never ever change
With sands of time running loose
At crossroads of life somewhere
Righteous be the path you choose

And leaving the footprints behind
We walk together through the time
And slowly looses its meaning its rhyme
Only thing left is a painful chime

But slowly fades the memories woven
Some wasted some preserved some stolen
And bounded by a set with brackets open
Your touch so divine left my heart stolen

If i ask you

If i ask you to move back in time,
When relations were as fresh as lime,
The time when you were school girl like,
That smart damsel riding on her black bike,
The time when we never knew what it felt
To be loved or left by kith n kin apart,
And if i give you the power to take back,
The memories of how every person is and what he lacks,
And if a chance to relive the moment,
Timrd of bad decisions wrongly spent,
And if I got a chance back then,
If i ask you you to be my more than a friend,
No not out of infatuation but for my rhyme,
To make even more memorable the relationship for first time,
But I wonder what would be your answer,
Would it be the same or would it ever differ...

Untitled

step up your feet
feel up the heat
you are in a race
catch up the pace
Its a bloody war
At no one's grace
Dare to take a moment
It will hit you in face
Release ur inner soul
Dont feel ashamed to play foul
World is based on truths n lies
Mixed emotion of smiles and cries
Gone the time when there was a man
Hunger followed the hunted ran
Time has changed and everyone is a prey
The hunter gets hunted by the cash so grey
In the middle of nowhere where noone can find
Where the rest lies the soul and finds true divine

Weird mind thoughts

Behind your misery lies a very wise mind
A cunning sharp rivalry undoubtedly calm and kind
Before you realize the shock the bullet has passed
The magic is done and the spell has been cast..
And you still wonder in the meadows thinking
As futile as escaping a Bermuda with ship sinking
An itch , a lust, a crave and those bewitched eyes
And nothing else is left but with truth that you deny.

Expectation

Expectation is an itch
Its a curse from some witch
The moment you born
Expectations are sworn
As you grow up in life
Deeper inside the mind goes the knife
You expect more and more
Get drifted away more from the shore
You expect life to be this way
How you end up is hard to say
But expectations still haunt
Consolations and taunt
And in the end you die
Somewhere else gets born another unfortunate
Your soul leave behind and fly
But those expectations pass on get inherited..

Miss you

In the loneliness I miss someone so badly
You are there and I am here sadly
Day by day I see you everywhere
Seperation so far God plays unfair
A minute with you is like a day
Pleasure to heart needless to say
I wish ther was some kind of magic
A technique defying all human logic
I wish I was capable enough
I wish to stand by you tall and tough
I wanna hold you hand and walk through storms
To candle lights and funky proms
All one needs is someone to love
With you life seems so much simpler enough...

A try at cooking :)

Egg Curry

Dal

Bhindi ki Sabji

Sometimes i dream

Sometimes i dream about you,
When i am looking onto the dark sky
Such times i need to go through
A lot of nostalgia dont know why
And i ever wonder to myself if i could
Have done more than possibly should
And you be forever in my eyes shining
With a hope like a cloud with silver lining
And the day i will see you again my friend
I never gonna let you go my shonalisa,
Just wanna spend the time looking at you and wonder
Had god really sent an angel in my life or committed a blunder.

A text :)

Its a txt away to say hi,
Its a txt away to say bye,
Its just a txt tat keeps connected,
its just a txt tat keeps you and me nested,
Its just a txt tat make you feel near me,
Imagine you in front when Icant see,
Its just a txt that keeps me warm in cold,
Its just those small replies that say stories untold,
Its just a text that keeps me alive in your mind,
Its just a text that helps carry memories left behind,
Its just a txt wid letters so few,
But its not ever enough to say how much i miss you

Master of your soul

Remember the time when it was black n blue
You headed on a way you had no clue
You knew the path wasnt smooth but skew
It was a journey hard taken by few
But inside a glimmer of hope knew
Success is a plant that gradually grew

Its easy to give up and then lie
Easy to give up and go die
Easy to accept failure than deny
Easy to blame luck on which rely

You are the master of your soul
You can make your own way to the goal

Uplift

Walking across the streets thinking
Some thoughts make me feel sinking
Is it the place where i am supposed to be
Or is it the delusion i am unable to see
The blood and the sweat do they always pay ?
Time passes by and just the regrets then stay
Try adjusting tweaking to mould in new life
Frustration spreading through mind so rife
And when you decide to give up the game
Accept being a loser the hall of shame
Look around and see many great example set
Who lost many times in their life's bet
Thrashed spitted damned were they
Out of all the odds their consistency did pay
To achieve such greatness you need to learn
Greatness is not tagged but can only be earned

Invictus - Willam Ernst Henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.



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The reason behind sharing this poetry is that this is one of those poetries that are truly masterpieces . A piece of work that can instill life back in a dead meat so inspiring. Read it once twice but every time you will always feel a kind of adrenaline rushing out in blood a new vigour in your body..
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hey girl

Hey girl dont take me wrong,
This is for you lovely lady my song,
I go to bed try hard to sleep,
Spend entire night just counting sheeps,
But its you that haunts my mind,
Never allows it to come back from sweet divine,
Under the moonlight a table for two,
Candle lights and chocolates all for you,
You be the guest of honour my delight,
I just dont wanna let you go away out of my sight,
In your plate i shall server things big n small,
Sweet little things you like written on my wonderwall,
Say and do things that keep you smiling all along,
And inspire me to write for you yet another song

Working on a dream

The days have past the nights have gone,
Those random feelings never shown,
I'm working on a dream,
I'm working on a dream..

I'm working on a dream with you in my mind
I'm working on a dream with all those memories behind

Yeah I'm working on a dream,
Though how much impossible may seem,
I wonder how to make you mine,
How much you mean to me cant be defined,
For that final meet you shall never forget neither ever redeem
I'm working on a dream,.. I'm working on a dream ..

Importance of 'Final Year Project' in engineer's life

According to Oxford, an 'ENginEER' is a skillful contriver or an originator. A person who devises new things, innovates and improves the quality of living using the skills he is trained in his four years of engineering college life. But do you really think does this definition apply to many of us today ?

Being an engineer, a thought always ponders in my mind . Are we, most of the engineering graduates today, able to truly call ourselves a true engineer? There is no need for you to give GATE or any other technical exam to test yourself as an engineer. But you have a real easy way to judge yourself by simply looking at your 'FINAL YEAR PROJECT'.

The ultimate test of all the skills you developed in 4 years is the final year project you take. For most of us its just a waste of time, a forceful endeavor, or just another obstacle in the way towards your degree. To few its like a commitment made to the four years they strived to make their identity. The casual attitude of todays engineer towards their projects is the big reason for the downfall of the quality of engineers produced today.

Moreover are the students only responsible for this degradation in the engineering attitude ? The answer is no. Usually the first stage of starting any project is to find a suitable person who can steer your project towards a success in a stipulated amount of time. This person is called the 'Guide' of your project. Ideal method to select a guide is to check if he has the necessary skills and command in the field your project is in. But now the scene is completely reverse. People chose their guides on the basis of the fact that 'the more linient and the lesser skillful the teacher be , the more he is preferred to as a guide'. And the story doesnt end here. Even such teachers who are of completely different fields come to judge students in their Project exams giving them another loop hole. Some guides give out ready made reports to their students to just copy and paste it so that he/she doesnt need to go through the details of the report. Some are more interested in formatting rather than the content. I mean formatting can even be done by a layman why you need to be an engineer ?? Cant they understand this simple thought? Anyway this is the main reason for the shift in the mentality of students, about the image of a guide.

The level of projects undertaken by grads have also fallen these days. The basic definition of engineer as a skillful contriver is slowly forgotten by many.

The friend zone

Love - this four letter word is one of the most complex things you can find in this world. Love can be in different forms between different people, it can have various significances and diverse meaning in different contexts. But the kind of love most of the young guys in their early 20's are worried about is that which happens between a guy and a girl.

Love can happen almost anywhere anytime. It can happen with a glimpse or after years of hard work and understanding. But dont be fooled by simplicity of the previous line, love is a stubborn bit*h that is hard to be tamed. There are many risks involved in the game of love. One fatal mistake that most of the guys are doomed to commit is being dragged into the "friend zone". Yeah you heard it right the"friend zone."

So whats the" Friend Zone" ??
Its the most absurd state of mind that a beautiful girl puts an innocent guy by taking for granted his feelings for her and considering him just a "good friend". Most common misconception is that love happens after friendship. No it doesnt. It just increases the level of frustration in a guy and decreases his self esteem. The girls very often use this as a tool to keep a bunch of poor love hungry guys near them and to manipulate them by just leaving them with the thought that they are her close friends. So in the end its the dude who is pawned by the dudette.

So what should one do to not to get into the friend zone ?
So what one should do eh!!! if i would have known then i wouldnt have written this post. I am still searching for an answer to this question. You do all things that a normal girlfriend boyfriend do, you share each second of day , you dont hide even the most private thoughts in your mind from each other . Still not able to accept the relation .

I mean screw it !!!!!

So what ??

You made my life taste sweet,
Girl trust me i would never cheat,
Your smile marks the sunrise of my day,
The night occurs when with sweet dreams wishes you say,
I love you even more when you call me sweet dil,
Time freezes when i read the message heart beat still,
So what if i cant be more than a friend your man,
But you are the one and only one i adore my pretty woman,
That really wooed my dreams my day my night,
Oh my sweetie i wish forever you be my queen and i be your knight ..

Feelings before Leaving college :(

Breaking the shell and unfurling its wing
4 Years past we entered Engineering
Unknown faces were we unknown cultures
every other thing appeared to be preying vultures

time passed by and people became familiar
The bond of friendship grew stronger year by year
learnt a lot from the company of some of the best
Some inspired others setting examples out of the rest

The 4 hostels were like 4 shrines
each had a different flavour like different wines
The unique birthday bashes colourful tv room
Different colored threads were binded together by this handloom

Finally reaching on the brink when we look back
we are responsible for where we are no one to sack
Profound thoughts emerge into this unstable nostalgic mind
Thinking of all beautiful memories, thinking how to bind.

The four years gave glimpses of all the phases of life
Some got glimpses of love, luckier ones found their wife
But above all is the relation of friendship that nurtured
Amongst all the feelings that some time or other ruptured

At present it feels like a mission accomplished
A dream come true a dream i wished
But the sadness overshadows the happy sun
When you know the deadline has arrived and you need to make the run
You need to leave back and you know you have reached the ends
You realize its time to leave back your beloved friends
suddenly everything small and big flashes back
You are left with no choice but to leave with all those sweet memories in a sack

Thus ends the story of an Engineers dilemma
This is not the end but the starting of a new cinema
Ahead is a life full of tasks to be endeavoured
But never forget these 4 years happily together we forever savoured

Miss Sunshine

There is a sweet angel in my heart
Describing her, I dont know where to start

I miss her everytime this heart throbs,
With her smile, my heart , she robs.

She tells me you are a liar and a flirt,
Checking out girls dude you will be the first.

But i feel helpless in my defence
I have the answers but cant give them at any expense

I love to write about her every now and then
She is my inspiration dont know since when

She always enjoys pulling my leg
And i enjoy pretending helpless like an egg

I just wish to keep on writing till i die,
Pen down every moment of my life with you till the last sigh

This is what you did

Why do you come back in my life
Better stab my heart with a knife
You look around me like a spy
I wish to come closer you deny
I cant understand your feelings for me
But am sure of mine understood by thee
Being a man its hard to cry
You compared to whore my anger fry
Comeback to my life everytime i pray
Listen to this heart what it has to say
I am addicted to you and your voice
You not responding to me leaves me no choice
It feels my heart is between fire and ice
The wounds are being treated with chilly and spice
Someday sometime you will need me
I will be on other side of road carefree
If you ever feel lonely alone in life
I will be standing behind you with arms open wide
The only thing i want to hear from you
You fall into my arms and say "i ♥ you"

Broken Hearts

Something changed in my life when you came in
A beautiful sunrise or call of the golden evening
A thunder struck down to the ground
The surface wasnt the earth but this flesh of 7 pound
What i felt at that instant i couldnot make it sound
My soul was stirred didnt notice anything else around
Have you seen the flowers that adore a garden
A single droplet of rain in soils so barren
Like moon and stars that sparkles the cloudless sky
Like the first blossom when spring sets to fly
You came in my life and seeded true happines
The calmness of soul never ever witnessed
Your sweet smile numbs all my senses
A flood of love in my heart commences
Your beautiful eyes your lovely chin
Oh god save me from commiting this sin
I dont have guts to tell you what you mean to me
I hope someday you will see what i see
Everyday in the evening on my table
I pick up my pen, sheets of my diary to label
In each page filled with lines
A new feeling arouses, if someday you will be mine
And i will continue to write till the day
When the pages of my life end and you vanish away....

If Only You Could See

I wish to talk to you
But hold back dialing through
I long to hear your voice
But cant speak to you no choice
Just thinking about you I feel sick
Sick of love, sick of being left unpick
i want to hear you say " Hi"
So desperately to hear you cant stop to cry
If only i could change the past
We could be as happy as at the start
Times have changed we are apart
Your heart has boarded someone else cart
But i am still waiting at the station
Waiting for the bus towards your love's destination
Come back to me come back to me
If only how much i love you , could you see...

Tears of blood

i see you accompanied walking by the shore
i see you sailing away more and more and more
my tears of blood on floor, tears of blood on floor
cant you feel the ocean roar
waves from the past making wounds so sore
and your memories as i stood tried to tore
but tears of blood fell on floor tears of blood fell on floor
hope someday you get drifted ashore
in my arms again forever together.. no bondages anymore

Final Year Sentiyaapa

It was the summer of twenty seven
The day we set out leaving our heaven
With many thoughts and a lot more anxiety
As we set our foot in SVNIT

with the advent of first year began a chase
now we all are in this sad final phase
Labs classes and dumb, beautiful adhocs
bunkers and renegades are we , thats why tronix rocks

The evening at galla the midnight NC
The tasty vadapav and awesome rajubhai tea
Hours of idle talk and giving GPA
god bless canteen and NIFT i pray

The freak show at the last benches
The back benchers -Kings of hearts and The Aces
Hod warnings ,threat of XX grade
Kicking out teacher out of class instead

Ups and downs , rise and fall
College life has shown us all
Not far is the day when we shall seperate
But never let these memories ever evaporate
Because this is your life's golden page
4 years of engineering a heaven inside a cage


#Dedicated to all my friends

Something

Feelings, there are numerous feelings,
Passions, innumerable passions thriving,
When I think about you oh my lady,
The lady of my Dreams
"Damn" says this heart, the heart of silver,
As pure as the divine serenity on face of moon,for
Having not the power to look deep into
Your eyes as enchanting as of those heavenly angels
Deep as those pacific depths
And stand in front of you
A person as unmatched as the Titanic
To tell you what i always wanted to tell
From very first moment i saw you
No Madame its not mere crush
Because crush doesn't involve an everlasting longing
To see one who this heart always
Wants to be in front of, looking into her eyes lifelong,
So i wrote these lines, not mere lines
But the voice of my heart
To tell you that how much I ..........
.Before its too late....

Voice of my heart

Feelings, there are numerous feelings,
Passions, innumerable passions thriving,
When I think about you oh my lady,
The lady of my Dreams
"Damn" says this heart, the heart of silver,
As pure as the divine serenity on face of moon, for
Having not the power to look deep into
Your eyes as enchanting as of those heavenly angels
Deep as those pacific depths
And stand in front of you
A person as unmatched as the Titanic
To tell you what i always wanted to tell
From very first moment i saw you
No Madame its not mere crush
Because crush doesn't involve an everlasting longing
To see one who this heart always
Wants to be in front of, looking into her eyes lifelong,
So i wrote these lines, not mere lines
But the voice of my heart
To tell you that how much I ...... .....
Before its too late....