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Monday, May 27, 2013

Itch with no cure

its been a long since you left
suddenly everything is bereft
those long endless nights
when love blinded your sight
am not alone I want to think
but i am this close to on brink
a nudge at back and i am gonna fall
I dont when this going to end
When would i stop feeling imprisoned
Your thoughts keep me apprehended
I guess you were right 
I was blinded though having sight
This day was going to come for sure
I created this itch with no cure

Willing to strive

I wish to write you down
Capture you between these lines
All I ever wanted to entrap
Your beauty between these rhymes
I am lost in these woods
Baffled amidst this golden lush
The sky used to be blue
But now is red like you blushed
Blinded but followed the shine
Till the horizon engulfed the silver line
Its now dark , a queer melancholic night
On my knees I put up a fight
Was i fooled or entangled in illusion
is this true or a sweet delusion
Cant catch hold of breath but still alive
Feels dead inside but willing to strive

Could begin again

I tried to reach you but was blocked 
I tried to meet you but your door was locked 
I called you anonymous just to hear your voice 
I switched 10 numbers to b blocked I had no choice 
I just wish to talk to you once coz I need my answers 
Why did you kept lying keeping open the chances 
You said you never needed me 
Us being together was a liability
It was you who thought so when I was hiding reality 
But you forgot those desperate times 
When you accepted to.be my incomplete rhyme 
When you let me hold your hand and stare in your eyes 
You loved it when I trusted you more ,overlooking truths n lies 
When in the rain on my knees I asked will you be with me forever 
And you wanted to walk through till end by my side 
I never felt and I would never come to know
Those things you said or did meant nothing but a staged show 
I seek my answers I want back my wasted past 
I wish I could begin everything again from.the.start ...

Its not gonna be forever

Its difficult to forget 
but its not impossible
Its difficult to get back up
When you fall 
With dust in your eyes
Unable to even crawl
But the challenge is 
In the phase you see
The time you spend
Down in dust
The time you take
to get back up
Between the rise and fall
Its up to you 
to move swiftly or stall
I am on my knees 
You made me fall
But its not gonna be forever
Oh no! Not at all
Someday or other 
I will be up on my own
And it would be the day
When i would leave you stoned
Its not near but its not far
I have frittered enough
Trying to reach the wrong star
I may seem weak but
The voice inside howls
I am what i want to be
The master of my soul

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Chapter 1- The text


Jan 16th , 2009

The clock was ticking .. It seemed suddenly the fourth dimension was undergoing some unfavorable changes as the mid-semester exam time was approaching.  The usually noisy environment in hostel was filled with chants of guys cramming their xeroxes. The usually empty corridors were filled with walkers, drowned in the notes.

"chal be sale m@@ch@@daeye.. jo hoga dekha jayega!.. chal chalte hain" said a very good local friend of mine as he gatecrashed through the flocked group of fellow students who came into my room for several reasons which ranged from knowing the syllabus to clearing doubts. I was also tensed as we used to have two exams on a single day and it was the time for the business management paper. The most dreaded paper which included almost thousands of lines of cramming and mugging without any possible application of brain. Anyway Rushil's (my localite gatecrasher friend) took me by surprise but I felt relieved. Atleast someone came into my room with a topic not related to exams.

Mobiles check.. Cheats check... Codes written on hand covered under sleeves check.. id card - check.. All done .. And as I was about to leave a very unexpected person texted me. The probability that I would get a text from this person was like a 0.0000000001. I couldn't read the text as I had to rush to the hall as we already got late for the test. Getting late had become like a habit. I was kind of a good boy and an obedient student unlike Rushil. Rushil was like smart, intelligent but had very cool attitude. Atleast he gets the credit for teaching me the art and fun of arriving late in lectures and skipping them for galla-talks.

As expected exams got over and fortunately it was the last exam for the mid-sem. I got back to my hostel, turned on my PC and instantly joined the CS servers.  One hell of a game we used to play a lot in our hostel no matter what time of the day it was. That day we played a marathon CS match for almost like 6-7 hours. Finally I was on my bed resting after a long hectic three days of exams and then I remembered about the text.

The text was from Ananya.....

"Hi.. how are you?"

I was speechless. I didn't know whether it would be correct to reply back or not. So I deleted the text, restraining my urge to reply her back. I was worried if she was alright or if she was in some problem, but it wouldn't be appropriate to talk to her.

I put away my phone and desperately needed something to switch my mind off to some different topic. And every hostel inmate knew that nothing could be as effective a stress buster as the bhajan folder collection on possibly all the systems in the campus.

Finally, the day ended for me and the next day I was back on my regular routine with all the thoughts about the text drained out of my mind.

I was at peace but not for long..

You were the one...


Still today when I close my eyes
I cant erase you ...
Still today in my dreams
I cant stop imagining you..
You said you aren't the one
You moved on never turned
Why is it difficult to accept
That you are gone..
My mind remembers your last words
But my heart is lost in mist absurd
I try harder but stronger it gets
Your thoughts those talks your texts
Oh why you ever need to go
Why cant it be possible for me
Why I still believe in my heart
You were the one in my destiny..